Nerves of a New Mom
I’m quickly approaching my 4th week of being a new mom and slowly I’m beginning to feel more comfortable in this new role. While I experienced that special “bonding” with my daughter very quickly, I’ve also had many moments of worry and concern over our little one since she’s arrived in this world… Is she sleeping too much? Is she sleeping too little? Why does she wake up when I lie her down? Can she nap in her swing (which she loves)? Why is she working so hard to poop? Is she too warm? Why is she crying? Is she in pain? Does the trip to the grocery store over-stimulate her? Shall I go on??? Are you breaking out in laughter yet?
My husband who was a wreck with worry while I was pregnant — overly cautious while driving, concerned about my health, the health of our unborn baby… Seems to have shed all that worry now that Quinn is here. He’s confident and comfortable with this little being. However he does worry about me worrying!! Are you worried yet?
For any and all questions I’ve come up with, I’ve found myself reaching out to my laptop to the bottomless pit of answers online. The web provides NO definitive answers but rather equal support and opposition for ANY topic I research, which translates to: I’m left more confused than before I started. Jake quickly got wise to me and my “research” online… When he sees me frantically reading through Baby Message Boards he says: “What are you researching now???” I look at him with an almost guilty look and say “nothing”, knowing he’s already figured me out.
The good news is, as I approach this 4th week, I can feel this “worry” begin to subside… And be replaced slowly with confidence and reassurance that I can and should trust my instincts. The truth is, in the end, I’m doing what feels right to me and what seems to work for Quinn. I’m learning not to compare Quinn to children of our friends and family. How can you compare two individuals who are as different as snowflakes? It’s nearly impossible. Rather I am appreciating how our daughter is her own unique self. As I approach my second month as a Mom, I look forward to watching Quinn grow and watch as more of her personality begins to emerge.
Now I’ve got to go check on my daughter… She’s been sleeping for nearly 2 hours, should I wake her up??? 
