Quinn is now 17 months old and I have spent very, very little time away from her. VERY LITTLE TIME. I’m not saying this as a positive or a negative — but rather, just a simple fact. Being a SAHM, yes, it’s my job to be with her 24/7, however, I rarely leave her with Jake or my MIL to have some time to myself. On the rare occasion that I would step out, I would be filled with worry. Not about the ability for Jake to care for her obviously (because hello? He’s sort of the best dadda in the world… Just ask Quinn). However I’d simply worry about things not going well – she’d have a fit. It sounds so silly when I type it out because what toddler doesn’t have meltdowns? She has at least one meltdown a day, usually more with me. So what if she has a melt-down with Jake? (Yes, I’m aware that I’m slightly looney and please bear with me because I’m trying to be better, but holy moly, my default is to be a bit nutters).
ANYHOO… All of this is changing because as of 2 weeks ago I began a 2 month long program called Recess Bootcamp. It’s an all encompassing program, meaning it includes, workouts, health fitness assessments (before/after), and nutrition education. We meet 3 times a week for a little over an hour. Which, when all is said and done, it’s a nice 2 hours away from the house and I LOVE IT. I seriously love it. In exchange for getting to participate in the program, I get to blog about it on Urbanmamas.com. Which, um, I sort of love that site and am slightly addicted to it. So, to be able to write a few pieces and have them posted on UM is very, very awesome in my book.
Also, I cannot even explain how recharged I feel when I return from one of my workouts with Recess. Being able to step away for those 2 hours and only focus on me and my body for that moment is heaven. And the fact that I’m doing something good for my body, that my body needs is a bonus. What makes me just as happy is being able to step away and let Jake and Quinn have some solid father/daughter bonding time. When I come home, Jake fills me in on the activities they did — beaming from ear to ear. And then my heart nearly bursts with happiness every single time.
It’s taken me almost a year and a half to find time for myself and I guess it’s better late than never right?